postcards ...

i hate postcards. i mean, i appreciate them and the sentiment that they convey of being thought about and missed. but i hate sending them. or, more accurately, i hate writing them. so, i’ll apologize right now to everyone i have never sent and/or never will send a postcard to. please know that you are, indeed, thought about and missed. the thing is, i have a writer’s heart (and am also a woman). translation - i like details. a lot of them. i just find it overwhelming to condense everything about my current adventure - every experience, every thought, every feeling - into a measly 5 x 3.5 box of white. or as the genie in aladdin would put it, “PHENOMENAL COSMIC POWERS! itty-bitty living space!” oh, and don’t forget to leave room for that stupid postal sticker at the bottom. and if there's a description of the location, just forget it!

i know, i know, the point is not to tell everything. hit the highlights. love you. miss you. buh-bye. but that is not my nature ... whether in matters of travel or in matters of the heart. of course, this is what gets me into trouble. i can’t tell it all, and so i end up not telling anything at all.

that is where i find myself today. my heart is so incredibly full. God has been doing so many incredible things in my life. but i’m finding it impossible to try and convey every experience, every thought, every feeling. heck, i hardly know half the thoughts and feelings myself. so, until i can wrap my head around some of the things that God has been revealing, a postcard it is.

* after a bit of a hiatus from the world of childcare, i am now the nanny for two beautiful 5 1/2 month old baby boys 3 days a week. why did i ever leave?
* i coordinate the curriculum and volunteers for the precious preschoolers at my church. there is a reason we’re commanded to have the faith of a child.
* after 4yrs in nashville (can NOT believe i’ve been here that long), and 3yrs living in an apartment with a great roomie, i just moved into an amazing house with two dear friends and amazing women of God. such a testament to God’s goodness on so many levels.
* i am a writer. i am working on acting like one. God is beginning to open doors in areas that i had closed off, and blessing the steps i take. this is incredibly scary, but also so very exciting.
* fear and excitement sums up pretty much everything right now. the key is focusing on the latter and not the former.
* i love you all. i miss those of you i don’t get to see. buh-bye!