the One who holds the stars ...

my desire for human connection runs markedly deep. it is one i am pretty poor at expressing, and when i do it is rare, and usually born out of desperation. so when i do, and it is not recognized, or honored, it can feel devastating. after a day that has left me reeling, on top of many days and weeks and months that have left me reeling, all i want is a soft place to land. instead i find myself battling devastation, but getting in the car, these are the words i hear …

If you can hold the stars in place

You can hold my heart the same

Whenever I fall away

Whenever I start to break

So here I am, lifting up my heart

To the one who holds the stars

(Stars - Skillet)

and then this …

You built me up like a city of gold

The battles rage but I'm standing tall

You formed my heart like an empire

The wind and rain can't stop this fire

If only I could see it from Your perspective

The beauty and the grace of Your architecture

(Architecture - Jonathan Thulin)

and this …

There’s a brokenness inside of you

there’s a wound that still reminds you

of the fear, shame and rejection

you have seen it, you have seen it

You know it’s time to get up

but your heart’s paralyzed, you’re so stuck

you’re past the point of trying again

you’re defeated, you’re defeated

But something inside you can’t deny

you hear the call of your Creator

I made you for more, unlocked the door

I wanna restore your Glory

So Rise

Breaking the dark, piercing the night

you’re made to shine

an army of hope, bringing the world a radiant light, a radiant light

you were made to Rise

Rise

(Rise - Danny Gokey)

and so here i sit, letting the truth of these lyrics wash over me, putting the pain to use, refusing to let it steal my voice like it has for far too long. the point here is not the pain, but how God meets us in it and speaks exactly what our hurting hearts need to hear ... if we are willing to listen. i’m so grateful for the reminders that He alone - maker of the very stars - holds my heart, and that, standing strong amidst the battles, wind and rain, i am called to something higher. i pray that these reminders speak to someone else’s heart, as well. find these songs and listen to them. don’t give in to the despair when it threatens to overcome. 

human connection will fail you time and again, but the healing power of HIS love NEVER will ... (psalm 136)